Sunday, December 5, 2010

Day 6 Master Cleanse

Ate a hershey chocolate almond bar on Day 4...but other than that I've been doing pretty good..nibbled on a few whole wheat saltines this morning to settle my stomach so I could go shop with mom, but that's about it. Finishing out Day 6 with my tea, looking forward to solid and delicious fatty food, but finding strength in that I've made it this far...Climbed on Friday (Day 4), biked 3 miles and ran 1.5 in the gym tonight...wish I'd been doing cardio all along, because it felt great. Hoping to swim some this week.

Missing food and still tempted by it, but not like before. Also, not hungry like before. Weighed in at 156.9 on Day 4.

Tomorrow, Day 7. :)

Friday, December 3, 2010

Day 3 Master Cleanse

Much harder day physically--felt very fatigued, sore all day (worked out on Monday, did legs pretty hard, inner thighs very very sore!), and struggled the first half of the day to just be mobile.

Got motivated to go to Toasty Yoga at the gym by 8, was feeling much better, got up and moving, by the time I got to the gym felt much less fatigued. Cravings not NEARLY as bad as yesterday. Feel like I can do this. Yesterday was definitely more mentally/emotionally challenging.

Also noticed today that I have leaned up a bit. Could see it visually, but weighed myself at the gym and came in at 158 (was 162 on Monday), which is a little over a pound a day lost, much of which came out of the intestinal tract I imagine, but maybe 2 pounds fat lost from the looks of my body. Also felt rewarding to see that my body was changing.

Tomorrow: day 4. :)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Day 2 Master Cleanse

Cravings pretty rough today--seriously considered breaking the cleanse several times from mid afternoon to evening, but managed to power through and make myself another lemonade and rent a movie to distract myself. Drank my tea about an hour ago, feeling strangely good right now. More alert and energetic than I've felt all day. Today was a pretty lethargic day. Very difficult to focus, a little cranky, physically weak. Surprisingly mentally weak. Only day two and the urge to eat something fatty and salty was nearly enough to override my resolve.

Scary to think how the body really has so much more control over us than we think. Not used to dealing with nearly- to uncontrollable urges. A bit unsettling to reflect upon.

Still feels like it will be eternity before I eat anything delicious again, but not feeling so bleak right now (the same could not be said for 3 hours ago... :)

QUOTES:

“Pain passes but the beauty remains.”
~Pierre Auguste Renoir


“Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and the unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind. Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness. In the union of love I have seen in a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined. With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of man. I have wished to know why the stars shine. Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens, but always pity brought me back to earth; Cries of pain reverberated in my heart Of children in famine, of victims tortured And of old people left helpless. I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot, and I too suffer. This has been my life; I found it worth living.”
~Bertrand Russell.


“Let us endeavor to live that when we come to die, even the undertaker will be sorry."
~Mark Twain


In a cosmos of billions of galaxies,
In a galaxy of billions of stars,
There's a planet with billions of people~
The only one we know of~
And every breath we breathe is a miracle.
Our hearts pump.
We see.
We feel.
We taste.
We touch our world.
And sometimes we forget the pure wonder
Of our brief journey on earth.
My life is committed to making artwork,
That wakes people up to the miracle of life.
The value of being human
And the transformative power of love.
There are moments when we see behind
The opaque curtain of life.
When the infinite One
Shines through the skin of the beloved,
And we recognize the game we are in,
The journey we are on,
The powerful beings that we are
And the truth that is worth living for.
~Alex Grey, Artist