I am so overwhelmed at the indifference that surrounds me. Sometimes I think it will drown me. That is one of the reasons I can't wait to get out of this town, and I why I know you had to leave. So many people so absorbed in their own delusional bullshit, who can't seem to see anything beyond themselves and their own petty dramas in their shit-hole little backward towns. It is suffocating me. There are others, Tyler, who think like us. You've met a few, I know, and they are so important in encouraging and supporting that light within us, that spark of compassion that lives deep within us. There are others like us. Some days it seems not so, especially being here in this godforsaken town, but there are others. I have faith in humankind, in human dignity and love and compassion. I have more faith than I ever would have let myself believe I have, and while it doesn't live in some high-in-the-sky deity, it does live within every person I meet.
I see god in the face of every man, woman, and child I see. I'd sacrifice the whole of my happiness, my very life, for my faith in humanity. I'd die to save humankind, even for all the fucked up shit we've done to this world, I'd die to save us all. That is faith in something grand, something bigger than myself. But I don't think it's unfounded. I see that love in the eyes of lovers, in the eyes of a father with his baby girl, in the hearts of mankind, so courageous and quick to band together in an emergency, at times of crisis. Call me an idealist. I'll thank you for it. I'll be damned if I lose my idealism before the age of 21. I'll be damned if I ever lose it. "Idealists are the salt of the earth--without them, human life would become a stagnant pool of degredation." We are the dreamers. We are the earth movers, the soul-raisers, the spirit-lifters. We are the progress-makers and the changers of human history. We are the saviors. The utopians. The idealists. Without us, without a dream of what could be, why would life be worth living?
Indifference is just like any other foe. It need only be conquered by love and hope. I have faith in this war, and I believe with everything in my that my faith will carry us through the advent of civilization and save us all. Love will save us all.
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hon...I'm not enjoying this place either to let you know. I went from Chicago to Vegas to Somerset ky...and richmond is a tad better. Me and some of my friends are starving to get out of here too, and we're going on a raodtrip to Chicago and crashing at my grandma's place, and you are more than welcome to join, we're all feeling suffocated here. Just a thought for you dear:)
its funny because the way you talk about the town that is not 30 minutes from the town where i have found so many of the people you speak of...
you talk about that town like a lot of people talk about their hometowns...
i do not believe we are meant to stay in one place for too long because when we do we are not allowing ourselves to meet as many people as we possibly could...
therefore we are doing ourselves an injustice by limiting the number of friends we have to the few (if that many) people that are like us in one place...
i'm not sure indifference is as bad as the hatred and evils i have experienced...indifference is for the ones that dont want to feel...that is fine with me...but hatred and evils are something that i think we should all be focusing on...lemme know what you think babe
It's nice to hear you have faith becca...some people have already lost it all. *hugs*
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