Someday the Waves
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Day 6 Master Cleanse
Missing food and still tempted by it, but not like before. Also, not hungry like before. Weighed in at 156.9 on Day 4.
Tomorrow, Day 7. :)
Friday, December 3, 2010
Day 3 Master Cleanse
Got motivated to go to Toasty Yoga at the gym by 8, was feeling much better, got up and moving, by the time I got to the gym felt much less fatigued. Cravings not NEARLY as bad as yesterday. Feel like I can do this. Yesterday was definitely more mentally/emotionally challenging.
Also noticed today that I have leaned up a bit. Could see it visually, but weighed myself at the gym and came in at 158 (was 162 on Monday), which is a little over a pound a day lost, much of which came out of the intestinal tract I imagine, but maybe 2 pounds fat lost from the looks of my body. Also felt rewarding to see that my body was changing.
Tomorrow: day 4. :)
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Day 2 Master Cleanse
Scary to think how the body really has so much more control over us than we think. Not used to dealing with nearly- to uncontrollable urges. A bit unsettling to reflect upon.
Still feels like it will be eternity before I eat anything delicious again, but not feeling so bleak right now (the same could not be said for 3 hours ago... :)
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Day 1 Master Cleanse
The hunger is mild, sort of like a dull nagging--the lemonade drink keeps what I would consider to be any sort of biting hunger at bay, at least today, but there is a sort of ever-present dull hunger that saturates everything. The real struggle for me is the emotional/psychological comfort of eating that is lost. I didn't feel sad at all today, but I did feel more anxious. I kept wanting to eat to feel comforted, and when I didn't, it made me feel uneasy. Seeing or smelling fried or greasy food is the worst. Went to Paddy with Sarah tonight, there were burgers and pizzas and I really thought several times about breaking the cleanse--and only on day one!
Just talked with Mike, and we both have been feeling like we'll never get real food again. The irrational finality of it is very curious. I feel like I'm mourning the loss of all of my favorite foods, permanently. Truthfully, of food altogether. It feels like the only thing I will ever consume again is this lemonade, and I am condemned to a life of watching other people eat hand-pattied cheeseburgers with fries and pizza. But it's only for a limited time really! From here, though, 10 days seems like eternity.
Whew. Gonna be a long 10 days.
Well. 9 now. :) :)
Drank around 6 or so lemonades today. Completed the salt water flush this a.m., lax tea last night, about to drink my tea for this evening right now.
I can do this.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Master Cleanser: 2 days prior
bfast: 1/3 c. museli and soymilk, one egg fried in e.v. olive oil, green tea kombucha
snack: apple sliced with peanut butter, vitamin water xxx
snack: kalakand (ricotta cheese, sweet condensed milk, almonds), coffee with half & half & sugra
Couldn't fall asleep until around 3 am last night (chai tea too late?), alarm went off at 8am, woke up at 9:50, reset alarm for 10:30, got out of bed shortly after it went off. Made breakfast for me and the girls and aurora, drank my tea, relaxed for a bit. 12:36 now, getting in shower, then some yoga, then some writing.
QUOTES:
“Pain passes but the beauty remains.”
~Pierre Auguste Renoir
“Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and the unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind. Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness. In the union of love I have seen in a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined. With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of man. I have wished to know why the stars shine. Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens, but always pity brought me back to earth; Cries of pain reverberated in my heart Of children in famine, of victims tortured And of old people left helpless. I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot, and I too suffer. This has been my life; I found it worth living.”
~Bertrand Russell.
“Let us endeavor to live that when we come to die, even the undertaker will be sorry."
~Mark Twain
In a cosmos of billions of galaxies,
In a galaxy of billions of stars,
There's a planet with billions of people~
The only one we know of~
And every breath we breathe is a miracle.
Our hearts pump.
We see.
We feel.
We taste.
We touch our world.
And sometimes we forget the pure wonder
Of our brief journey on earth.
My life is committed to making artwork,
That wakes people up to the miracle of life.
The value of being human
And the transformative power of love.
There are moments when we see behind
The opaque curtain of life.
When the infinite One
Shines through the skin of the beloved,
And we recognize the game we are in,
The journey we are on,
The powerful beings that we are
And the truth that is worth living for.
~Alex Grey, Artist